i'm bad news.

new year, new journal.

2006-01-02T01:57:19Z

sc re en ed.

2006-01-01T19:24:55Z

this is the worst mistake i've made and i make thousands every day.

i'll just pretend i'm in a good mood & do this. k!

2005-12-31T18:57:30Z

i know you've seen them 10,000 times. & i know i do this all the time. but this is seriously the last huge picture post of 2005. then you'll never have to see this again. well not until i bring them out in like another year & say "omg look how gay i wuz~~~!!!" there are 380 pictures under the cut. just thought you should know!

haha. what a good way to end it. but ok. this was really honestly maybe the best year of my life. however, october to now have had their ups & downs but hey, whatever! september was one of the best months of my whole entire life. without a doubt. thanks to everybody who made 2005 amazing. even if we aren't close anymore & you're in those pictures. i mean it. all the people i met, everybody who let their ass hang out & let me take a picture of it, 80 year old burger king employess who caress me, random kids at shows, every person i've even just said hi to or conversated(is that a word?) with & um. well i guess my friends. (i seriously just gave a speech for the vmas or something) oh, and jamie lynn spears for allowing the paparazzi take a picture of you drinking a italian cream soda. they are now my favorite things ever. !!!!! ♥.

ok so here it goes. i know this whole thing will sound dumb but, whatever.

2005-12-31T04:18:52Z

i have seriously been balling my eyes out on and off all day. for so many reasons. like this is honestly just SO fucking stupid. almost every single day since the day after christmas have been the worst days ever. why?

1. i'm sorry, but lately (and yeah normally i am fine with 'who i am'. that or i just don't care) i find myself to be thee most disgusting person EVER. like seriously i hate everything i own. all my clothes and the way i dress. EVERYTHING. i hate my hair, it's dumb and gross and my bangs are always fucked up. my face is seriously. ugh. i'm sorry, i truly honestly do believe i have the grossest frkn face ever.

2. i'm pretty sure (and i'm sorry guys.. have to say it. even if it's not the case) i've been replaced by different people and/or you've just moved on and found something new or better. this break i've hung out with the people/person i would usually hang out with, or at least i think, a lot more twice. TWICE. all of my friends, or lack there of, have other 'groups' they can go to. me? i have like one. and i'm not complaining, i like having a small amount of friends. but it just has been sucking so hard lately. i have not been going anywhere, or doing anything. has anybody noticed? ANYBODY? well let me answer my own question and say i don't really think so. and this stuff really doesn't sound too bad until it happens to you. like to me and everything else that's going on this is hell. like i want to die. NOT EVEN KIDDING. i don't know how many times i'm going to say 'i know that sounds dumb' but i seriously do know this sounds dumb. i hate it. like. how do i word this whole thing without making it sound like i want people to make sure i'm happy all the time or you can't be happy unless i am or something? because i'm not saying that at all. i guess all i really want even though you are all having like omgz da best dayz evar~ i just want you all to think about how bad it would suck if you were me right now. i know i don't have it bad at all but compared to how my life usually goes, this is just horrible. this is the worst possible way to end 2005 ever.

3. i've re-typed this & re-typed & re-typed & re-typed but i can't explain it without making it obvious. and i really don't want it to be. so i'm not even going to say it. i really, really don't feel like going into it. but please don't ask me about it. and if you think it's you, it probably is. why would you think it's you if you didn't do anything? yep.

i seriously want to move into my dads house so bad. SO BAD. you have no fucking idea. but i don't have the balls to. so i'm not going to sit here and try to 'scare you' into thinking i am like most people do. because i never will. but i want to more then anything else in the world.

edit if i sit at home alone with my mom tomorrow, i'm seriously. jkhdfjkh2198347dfkjhkjehkjdskfj. i have no fucking clue what i'll do.

fedexedmyheart @ 2005-12-27T15:13:00

2005-12-27T20:18:48Z

SO HEY. make plans with me! because i'm too shy to ask. but i'm going to cry if i don't do something soon. i did nothing yesterday & for some reason like wanted to die. UGH! no really it was the worst day ever. maybe people should stop hating me. or maybe i should quit thinking that. i'd probably go with the second one.

but i'm ordering some some flats from delias. & like two shirts. hopefully that makes me feel better. even though i won't be getting one shirt shipped to me until 1/27/06. DUMB? very. well in a way it isn't because i'm going to forget about it & then a package is going to be sitting on my porch one day for me & i'm going to be so excited!

release the bats fob dvd wasn't as good as i thought it was going to be :(

2005-12-26T04:38:46Z

lately i feel like people are: a. sick of me or b. annoyed of me OK, or c. they want me to like never talk to them again! & that they do not like me. kind of like i'm just kind of.. there. heycool. i sound really dumb but really :( ughh. i hate when i'm like this..? pretty much.

ANYWAY!

christmas was really good. i got a bunch of frkn money & an ipod & a lot of mac make-up. best christmas ever. didn't get a sidekick since my dad forgot what it was called. but i don't minddd. i talked to devin for a realllllllly long time yesterday. about everything. not gonna lie, i liked it a lot.

i'm far too lazy to carry out that 3 months from 2005 thing. so i'm just not going to. BUT!, i'm looking into buying a new camera. & i pretty much think i want the olympus e-300. 8.0 megapixels & it seriously has a remote control which is what i've always wanted. doubt i'll get it though. but it's pretty ok to dream.

my outfit was really cute today.

i hope everybody had a nice christmas! & got cute things. ilyall<3. :*

(POST SCRIPT) my dad is my favorite.

fedexedmyheart @ 2005-12-22T13:33:00

2005-12-22T18:30:26Z

i always hate breaks because i get really scared i'm not going to do anything over them. so. hi, please hang out with me? :(.

oh! & another reason i hate breaks is because now i cannot watch evan cook all hour in earth science with john wentz. so amazing, you have no idea.

oh well. at least i made really fucking good cream cheese sugar cookies yesterday!

fedexedmyheart @ 2005-12-18T20:09:00

2005-12-19T01:09:17Z

friday i went to donnas for her party. it was a really really really good night. i kind of like my friends a lot.

"hey guys wait up!"

lmao. you'll seriously never understandddd :( but i love donnas little brother richard. so much.

sara is such a good dancer seriously one of the funniest things ever. i have two more but i didn't feel like uploading them.
^ so ugh. it's pretty much off track. & putfile is being dumb & won't let me upload it so just dealll.

saturday i pretty much get pissed about something that i'm seriously not even going to say & am not going to be un-mad about until the day comes & it's over with. oh! & i wrapped presents & watched cheesy christmas movies. cooooooooooooooool.

today i didn't do anything either. i do however need to clean out my dressers in my room so i can put clothes in them. plus i need to find old good hardcover books to create this thing i've been wanting to do for forever. hopefully i can get started on it & finish by the end of break. note to self i guess?

my mom bought me the sweater from ae that i wanted. even though it's a christmas present & they didn't have the beige & white stripped one i wanted. she got me shoes to match. awwwzzz.

now me & jesse's mom can be twins, haha.

but seriously this one will be mine one day:

ily.

i hope everybody had a really good weekend. three days until break.

fedexedmyheart @ 2005-12-15T17:57:00

2005-12-15T22:58:02Z

friday jesse & shayna came over. jesse thought she would be really cool & annoy the living crap out of me by playing batman pinball until she got 9,999 points. seriously not funny since you cannot turn the sound off! :( but i hung out with shayna! finallyyyyy.

saturday i went to the mall with jesse, shayna, jessica & alyx & then back to jesse's where her mom made us the nicest sandwhiches & we talked to her dad about like everything! then me, jesse, alyx & ashley went to kims for donnas surprise party & played jenga for like an hour before she got there! but when she did it was really nice & it was seriously such a good night! i liked it.

i also like dancing with jesses dad to like 80's rap & then DRIVING AROUND looking at xmas lights in my sub while listening to shake by the ying yang twins. hahaha. not gonna lie, i thought it was incredible.

ok. sara obviously took these ones. & as you can see, the pictures are weird because of my dumb lense being dirty ugh.

wednesday i went to the hellogoodbye & rocket summer show! with jesse & donna & alyx. i actually really liked yesterday. to sum it up:

. waiting outside for forever in ten degree weather.
. the opening band being david melillo & me having no clue that they were playing! & now me loving them all over again.
. hit the lights being the worst band ever plus crazy/ugly/drunk 30 year olds with braces who called donnas necklace anal beads, LOL. no really worst/ugliest boy.
. the crowd being horrible during that dumb band & getting pushed like all the way to the back. what da heeeeeeCK!
. the rocket summer being AMAZING & me seriously falling in love with bryce avary.
. the magic stick being the hottest place ever & me being really dumb by wearing the biggest/thickest vest ever!
. hellogoodbye playing all time lows.
. hellogoodbye in general & them being better then when i seen them in ohio.
. the fact that they ended with touchdown turnaround.

so at the very end, during the middle of the song, a lot of people started going on stage, so i was like heyyyyyyyyy i want to too. just fo da hell of it. so we did & i uh kind of regret it because it was the most ridiclous thing ever! it's pretty cool to have like 100 people on a stage this |------| big.

but i did get some pretty bad pictures!

da rockaat summah:

soulmates.

dis when it got craazaaay.

& here are clips of hgb for you guyzzz :*

http://www.youtube.com/?v=B9Ok0JcJ0z4

http://www.youtube.com/?v=wijKQGCh-D4

http://www.youtube.com/?v=t2Vryt2I-DA
(that one is kind of messed up. probably because
i was right next to the speaker? idk though.
but whateverrrr!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=9IBYkIOKkqM
JK. LOL. omg i am so bad :( I THOUGHT THIS WAS ALL TIME LOWS.
until i realized it was call'nreturn. i pretty much want to kill myself.

jesse was having a really good time.

i really enjoy talking in ebonics with donna for 20 minutes straight about everything. so annoying. so nice.

i really like spending like 3 hours on lj posts.

i seriously don't care about lj cuts they're not even that big be quiet!

2005-12-14T01:38:29Z

i have not updated in 4e! so here you go.

TODAY IS DONNAS BIRTHDAY! happy birthday donna.

i like you a lot/

i basically want to do the following this weekend/over break really bad:
1. build a gingerbread house
2. go ice skating
3. go to chuck e. cheese. again.
4. hang out with sam. (you should seriously come over this weekend & make a gingerbread house with me! & i meannnn it. we really need to hang out because i haven't seen you in forever & it makes me mad)
5. hang out with renee? hay grl if you want to of course. seriously hit meh ^.
6. put you are beautiful signs everywhere/give them to everybody.
7. finish the dumb magazine collage i have been working on for like a year
8. finish covering the wall in my room up.

& a lot more. i just can't think of anything at the moment! but i really need to get like a lot of that done or i'm going to be upset.

12 days until christmas & i am so frickinnn excited. especially to see if i get a hiptop or not. because i asked for it & my dad said maybe but if i don't get that i get money & if i get money that means i can get this beautiful baby:

so niceeeeee

i've been wanting it for a long time now & if i have enough money for it after christmas it's definitely going to be mine. it takes the most amazing pictures i have ever seen. so thanks to that scottage_cheese guy for having it. well if i don't end up getting it then actually i was just kidding about thanking you. not getting my hopes up was never really my strong point.

so nice :(

tomorrow is hellogoodbye & i am frickinnn pumped. so i'll pretty much update with pictures from last weekend & hellgoodbye on thursday. i've been so incredibly lazy lately.

the ying yang twins are the only thing i have been listening to as of late. & let me tell you, i don't hate it.

but i do really hate when you deny somebodys request on myspace because they are like 23 & then they keep trying to add you. what the heck! seriously go away.

fedexedmyheart @ 2005-12-08T21:18:00

2005-12-09T02:20:57Z

i watched this movie yesterday night. i liked it a lot, for some reason. & ily
adrien brody. you & your huge nose. regardless of what anybody else says.

so cute.

somebody should (please) come over & watch cute movies with me tomorrow. i would like it a lot because it feels like i haven't seen or hung out with anybody in awhile. plus i would really just like to talk to somebody! about nothing really. just.. things.

haha. mine suckssss.

2005-12-09T01:49:04Z

go to your calendar & find the first entry for each month of 2005. post part of it in your journal & that's your year in review

JANUARY:
"YESTERDAYYY, i went to renees. & i bought cracker stacker lunchable! & i had my final dance party of '04 in her bathroom. i don't think shes knows / knew that, though."

FEBRUARY:
"i miss spring! & i'm happy it's coming soon. sooner then i thought. & when i used come home from school & was happy still! this unhappiness thing started like, seriously, last week. it's retarded. i just become tired & sad when i come home. it doesn't make sense!

everybody's going to see new found glory except me. i'm a little upset. but i think that hellogoodbye & hidden in plain view in ohio with bff's will be better. way better. fer shure ♥!

i hope this weekend is good! esp. friday! aw, i'm so excited. as am i for my play date with sam socia!

i woke up at 3 'o clock this morning & freaked out. i ran to the kitchen to check the time again & started getting dressed because i thought i was going to be late for the bus? i realized half way through i was a loser. but the whole night i woke up like every minute. this is happening way too much."

MARCH:
"http://www.livejournal.com/users/grapeladyfalls/10963.html?view=88019#t88019

HAHAHA. SO GOOD. i'm stoked for all the people to comment. i hope they do. if i don't get a lot of bitchy girls going at me, i'm going to be PISSED. aw so much fun. we're arguing about clips. this makes it so much better. the drama in my life is pathetic. i love it.

half day tomorrow = me not going to school. they don't call, so i'm just saying we don't have school. i need to sleep in, anyway. & i don't wnat to take that egg test.

lifeeeee issss goooooddd."

APRIL:
"today i went to the mall with alyx & jesse. & we finally found my soulmate. he was a really, really cute boy in a blue gravy train!!!! shirt. (i like how today was the one day i didn't wear mine either- GO AHEAD & SAY IT ALYX, I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU) we're going to run into eachother again & become best friends & move to chicago to attend art school. alyx & jesse plus their soulmates are going to come, too & we're going to live in apartments next to eachother & it will be really, really cute.

right now, corey critchely is getting "crunkified" or whatevah he said. he's got a 5th of vodka! OMG! OMG! OMG! i'm kidding. he's nicer, i don't mind him now."

&

"if i were to make a wish list i think the first thing that would be on it would be

a) a best friend.

preferably a boy. or maybe i just want a boyfriend.

so, that sounds CHEESY. but whatever, at least i'm not saying "i JuS waNn sOmEoNe tO HoLD MEh". well, i wouldn't because i don't.

don't touch me.

but i really don't. i just want a male companion because i get really annoyed of girls really fast. and i don't do too well with all that touchy feely bullshit."

MAY:
"skipping first hour tomorrow to see the give a boy a gun multiple with Aimee. wellworthit.

i picked up some of my confidence from the lost & found this morning."

JUNE:
"it's not true..things aren't better left unsaid. it's just a matter of how you say them.

part of life is learning &

i am,

slowly.

but i'd rather learn slowly then not at all.

it can only be as bad as you make it."

JULY:
"today devin picked me & jake and kelly up & we went to devins moms boyfriends house! it was a really nice house. today was nice! or yesterday! w/e! stupid time.

SO.. SUP @ IT BEING MY BIRTHDAY! :*

spun a story: thirteen minutes!
spun a story: twelve minutes!
spun a story: eleven minutes!
spun a story: ten minutes!
spun a story: nine minutes!
spun a story: eight minutes!
spun a story: seven minutes!
spun a story: six minutes!
spun a story: five minutes!
spun a story: four minutes!
spun a story: three minutes!
spun a story: two minutes!
spun a story: (wow i can't believe i did this the whole time:-\)
spun a story: ONE MINUTE!
spun a story: H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y ! ! ! ! (it was nice and big and colorful. but you wouldn't know that!)
spun a story: WHOOOHOO THE BIG FIFTEEN!
spun a story: hahahah omg. i'm so horrible"

AUGUST:
"the only band worth listening to anymore is fall out boy. onto more important things:

fuck you mtv. fuck you temptation island. fuck you oscar.

rubennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! :(

worst elimination round EVER!

well i don't even know why i'm freaking out this much because i always liked joey more. but still! ruben was cuter."

SEPTEMBER:
"sunday i went to jesse's for a bonfire bbq thing with alyx & shayna. it was fun & we are really cool! but these pictures are really bad quality for some reason & i really do not like it at all. :(

SSSSO YEARBOOK WAS REALLY GOOD TODAY. bestclass! i wore my brothers ashlee simpson zip-up with the anarchy sign on the back. \m/ sucks for people that didn't know it was an ashlee simpson hoodie, though. more specifically sucks for me."

OCTOBER:
"REASONS WHY I HATE FORD II HIGH SCHOOL:
1. they are putting a myspace page in the yearbook.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahhahahahahahahahahaahahahahhahaahahj sdfjksfkjldfkjdsfk dsf."

NOVEMBER:
"halloween was pretty ok. me donna & alyx were peepz from the 80's, i guessssss. even though i pretty much was wearing what i wear a lot of the time! whatevah. jesse was a homeless person. lol. donna is wearing like every mac eyeshadow i own in these pictures.

i'm going to start leaving notes around everywhere that say you are beautiful. with tips, in booths, around the mall, at school, in peoples agendas, on money. i will spread it everywhere & write it on everything."

DECEMBER:
the only updates i have are private & there are seriously like 12 of them. i haven't been doing anything at all. it pretty much sucks a lot. so hopefully i have plans this weekend.

at first i put that in quotes & then i realized i never made that update until now. lol.

i realize a lot of these are really long & really creepy sounding & me being repetivjh. but whatevs!

2005-12-06T00:00:13Z

"write paragraphs or statements about the people who have been on your mind, without saying their name, or anything giving them away, including gender and relationship to you, simply addressing them as "you". do it if you will. it feels kinda good."

01. we used to hang out so much & i really don't know what happened. it really sucks that we don't even at least say hi to each other in school. maybe you got sick of me & found people who you thought were better & worth your time. i have no idea. i just hope that you're really happy. but if you know who you are, which i hope you do because i never have enough guts to im you & tell you this but i really do love you. i think you are probably one of the greatest & funniest people ever. i don't think there was a time where i've been happier when hanging out with somebody.

02. you are not going to read this but lately you've been bugging me a lot. all you care about is one one thing & it's pretty much changing who you are. every once & awhile you're the person i'm used to you being but.. i don't know. i don't want to go on further. it'll only make me sound [more] selfish.

03. there isn't a day where i don't think about you. somebody will say something that reminds me of you & i get really happy but then really sad because. well do i even need to say it? what happened to us? i love you & miss you. i hope one day we can become close again. like how we used to be. but if that never happens i want you to know that i would be the biggest mess if you weren't there for me those couple of years. thank you. really.

04. becoming so close to you would definitely be one of the things i'm most thankful for this year. you really probably don't even understand how thankful. you have got to be one of the most amazing people ever. i love how i can make a complete ass out of myself with you & then be serious two seconds later & have the greatest conversations. i have a lot i would like to write down but i really can't [as cheesy as this sounds] figure out how to put it into words. ilov eyou.

05. out of all of my friends, i can relate to you the most. & that's just one of the many things i love about you! i find it so easy to tell you certain things about me that i just couldn't tell anybody else. for being so easy to talk to, understanding & always willing to listen, i thank you. you really truly are a great person. especially for still being my friend after all the dumb shit we've gotten into fights about. (♥)

06. so, basically. i think you are one of the greatest people! you can always make me laugh & every time we hang out, even if it is rare, i think it's one of the best things ever. i don't know why but still. we need to hang out real soon because we haven't in awhile & my step dad loves you/ hahaha. oh. & i guess because i miss you a lot or something.

07. you are a bit too honest for your own good & i think that is going to get you into trouble one day but haha. i love you for it sometimes. but only when you don't do it to me because it's sucks a lot but that's a different story. regardless of whether you really mean it or not, you laugh at pretty much everything & it makes me feel really nice. out of all of the people i'm friends with, you & your personality stand out the most. i really like that about you.

08. ok. here comes another one of those 'i miss how close we used to be' ones. but it's true. & i bring it up a lot to you & other people. i really don't know why stopped being so close. but i honestly wish it would have never happened. some of my favorite moments/days/times everevervevevrvevr were with you. i am really glad that we've been hanging out, though. even if it is just every once & awhile & we're with all of our friends each time. i think we need to hang out alone one time because you are amazing & i love you a lot.

09. we seriously made out in the hallway today. c/m.

10. you're not going to read this either but it's become pretty much impossible for me to do anything of this sort & not mention you. probably because i've known you all of my life & you've helped with me through more then anybody else has & ever will. i look up to you so much. you ARE the best person in the whole world. every single time i hang out with you it's nothing short of amazing. i know it's sounds dumb, but we really are the same person. i still to this day cannot believe how strong of a person you are & how you, no matter what, put everybody before you. ily more then you know.

11. you are so funny. i really love talking to you. you bring up the same stories a lot of the time but it seems like they only get better. i'm glad we talk again. i really, really, really hope we become good friends. all over again.

daddy choppy/

2005-12-01T03:50:16Z

not gonna' lie. i seriously love architecture in helsinki SO. FREAKIN. MUCH!

i am so looking foward to december. it is going to be amazing. & break. i like school & all but seriously break will be so nice. like 16 more school days left or something. :)!!!!

ily life.

I LOVE CHRISTMAS!

2005-11-28T00:46:04Z

SUP THANKSGIVING BREAK?

wednesday i went to the movies to see harry potter with alyx, ashley, donna, jesse, jessica & shayna. seriously such a good movie & day!

donna = mom.

lol. seriously best faces.

thursday ew. dumbest day evah.

friday i was supposed to go out to lunch with my dad but that didn’t work out & i was also supposed to hang out with jesse but that didn’t work out either! so i pretty much just put up the christmas tree by myself, drank hot chocolate & watched clueless. \m/

saturday we went to coney, meijers!!!!! \m/ & starbucks/quiznos (where i did an amazing evan cook impression) with alyx, jesse, mike & ron. jesse stayed the night & we are the worst people ever! i enjoy being retarded by taping magazine cut outs of peoples eyes, noses & lips on our face, dressing nu-metal/singing limp bizkit & me being really obnoxious at 2 in the morning with her. serious.

just chillin @ jessez

now. i really don't know if these are the best pictures ever or the worst pictures ever.
haha. i honestly think both. & some are seriously scary :( but no really. who comes up with this kind of shit?

i seriously love life. & i have to say. having jesse stare at me
with those eyes on was the scariest thing ever. esp when she was approaching me slowly.
NOT. EVEN. KIDDING.

RAWK/

today i feel like complete crapppppppppppp/ i was supposed to go to somerset with donna & kaili but i didn’t. my fault, my problem. so i said i should put up all those posters on my wall. yeah, didn’t happen. i am horrible!

note to self try to wash off the i ♥ satan, anarchy 4L & pentagrams written all over your hands/arms. cool.

OH, PS i seriously have 666 songs on iTUNES!!!!!

fedexedmyheart @ 2005-11-26T12:16:00

2005-11-26T17:17:29Z

B A S I C S . . .
01. single or taken: single
02. height: five foot fiveish.
03. sign: cancer.
04. siblings: jake & gage.
05. hair color: dark brown & red-pink.
06. eye color: brown.
07. shoe size: nine & a half.
08. full name: randi rose brusokas.

R E L A T I O N S H I P S . . .
09. who are your best friends: every single person i hang out with. i don't play favorites, nigguh.
10. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: no.
11. name the last person you went out with before now?: no.
12. are you still with them?: no.
13. if not, why did you break up?: no.
14. how long has it been since you've been together?: no.
15. who are you with now?: nobody.

T H E E X T R A S T U F F . . .
16. do you do drugs: nope.
17. what kind of shampoo do you use: whatever my mom buys.
18. what kind of conditioner do you use: whatever my mom buys.
19. what are you most scared of: dying.
20. what are you listening to right now?: do you hear what i hear? - copeland. christmas music \m/
21. what car do you wish to have: anything that works & has heat.
22. who is the last person that called you: my mom.
23. where do you want to get married: somewhere people usually don't.
24. three things you are often complimented for: when i get compliments i usually don't get them on one specific thing. i usually just get a "you look cute today"
25. a compliment you got that made you blush: when devin's aunt linda said i was the prettiest girl she's ever seen. well actually it made me cry, but. LOLOLOl/
26. what makes you happy: how amazing this candy cane pen smells, fall out boy, mah freynz, CHRISTMAS!, seriously just everything.
27. what upsets you: my complexion at the moment. periods ruin everything, seriously ugh. plus the fact that i am in a chat room with 5th graders. COOL/

L A S T . . .
28. movie you rented: the royal tenebaudfadsmsjkjfdfh
29. movie you bought: amelie?
30. song you listened to: love makes the world go round - ashlee simpson
31. song you've downloaded: dumb christmas music.
32. cd you bought: um. kanye wests' new one.
33. cd you listened to: i don't listen to whole cd's lolllllllll.
34. tv show you've watched: what not to wear.
35. person you were thinking of: oh this isn't creepy or anything.

D O . . .
36. you wish you could live somewhere else: YEAH, canada.
37. others find you attractive: idk!!!!!
38. you want more piercings: no.
39. you smoke: yes, sometimes. not as much anymore, though.
40. you like cleaning: VACUMING.
41. you like roller coasters: not really.
42. you write in cursive or print: it's a combination of both.
43. you carry a donor card: no.
44. you have a crush on somebody: not really.

H A V E Y O U . . .
45. ever cried over a boy/girl: ew. no.
46. ever lied to someone: yes!
47. ever been arrested: \m/ \m/ no.

W H A T . . .
48. clothes are you wearing: seriously ugly polka dot pajama pants & nu-metal xl misfits hoodie.
49. shoes did you wear last: my dumb brown slip on weird shoes.
50. are you scared of: dying!

N U M B E R . . .
51. of times you have been in love: 0.
52. of times you have had your heart broken: 0.
53. of hearts you have broken: um.
54. of guys/girls you have kissed: 0 & 2. omg lame :(
55. of people you consider you're enemies: 0.
56. of CDs' that you own: not many.
57. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: none that i know of.

T H E O P P O S I T E S E X . . .
58. what do you notice first: hair!
59. what is your perfect guy/girl: ummm. good hair. & nice shoes plus a taste in music i can stand & is FUNNY ! lolllllllllll. plus laughs at the dumb things i say.

W H O . . .
60. makes you laugh the most: obviously my friends because we are all really funny, duh!
61. makes you smile: pretty much everybody.
62. is somebody you just cannot stand: aimee jerkafag & evan cook. plus half of the yearbook editors & miss matty. oh not to mention the dumb group of girls in that class; squarehead, weasle & fatty.
63. do you have a crush on: nobody.

i edited this entry so much.

2005-11-26T01:17:03Z

i miss making fun of justin b because he looked like the boy with
down syndrome in our biology book.

1. today was a pretty dumb day! i actually really dislike it. like a lot! i had plans to do two things & both didn't work out. but i hope tomorrow is good. just so long as. eh, forget it. sunday should be good too.

2. i put the christmas tree up by myself. cool.

3. my 10 year old cousions friend keeps iming me saying the same thing. "hi dis is kennedyz friend maria she gave me ur sn" lol.

SERIOUSLY LOVE MARIA or whateva!

cloveragent3421: r u suppose to learn how to drive a car in 10th grade!?
haze of a city: heLl ya!!
cloveragent3421: o
haze of a city: sRry.. do u miNd if i swear??
cloveragent3421 no
haze of a city: kkz

LMAO.

speaking of my 10 year old cousion she called me fat yesterday while i was just sitting there reading. COOL, THANKS.

4. i downloaded a whole bunch of christmas music by good bands expecting it to be good but it all sucks. seriously ruined my night!

5. i've been doodling with this pepermint pen all day. seriously smells so good.

fedexedmyheart @ 2005-11-24T13:19:00

2005-11-24T18:19:57Z

so.. what am i thankful for you ask?

devin nicole burnssssssssss.

jacob daniel brusokasssssss.

gage vincent angelo (LOL) brusokasssssss.

jesse chopp.

alyx nummer.

donna salem.

mike anderlite.

shayna gagnier.

sam socia.

john wentz!!!!

not to mention these AMAZING days

& kaili doing really amazing things

& EVAN COOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am obviously just kidding.

plus a lot of other people that i don't have any pictures of, don't see a lot but still love to death & people i'm not that close to but would love to get to know way more. (ok.. & not gonna lie. i wanted to put some people in here that i had pictures of but i didn't know their last names. ugh.)

OH plus fall out boy, augusten burroughs, this november, 9/28/05, things going better then ever with my dad, screaming HEY MR. LEASEEEEE! when me & jesse see him before 5th hour & him just walking away really fast &/or ignoring us, the song the better part of valor by houston calls, my amazing chapstick that makes you feel like you’re skiing, stores continuously ripping my holes in my clothes leading to my amazing discounts, yearbook class & the song sunday best by augustana. okokok, every song by ausgustana. k! done.